March Break is over and I have to admit I was a little sad to see the kids go back to school. But, their being home with me each day last week renewed my appreciation for these quiet days where I can get work done, uninterrupted. Of course, the weather is so beautiful today, the contradictory urges to both spring clean and frolic outside are tugging at my pant leg like an impatient toddler.
Spring has arrived so early that I feel unprepared: I was going to be organized this year. I was going to have my backyard garden planned out on paper and seeds planted indoors just waiting to be lovingly moved into their own little plot of organically fertilized soil. My house was going to be free of clutter, cobwebs and the dust-ogres that tend to accumulate over the winter. And, I was going to make sure that I was ready for the warm weather just as I wanted my house and garden to be. I was going to confidently shake free of my sweaters with more pep-in-my-step, all achieved through a delicious, perfectly portioned, veggie-filled eating plan and exercise.
Okay, so I was a little overzealous.
Instead, I’m trying to find the right spot to transplant a lilac bush that still sits in the middle of my garden while I research what plants bees like best. I have no seedlings started and, honestly, I don’t even know if I should have by now. My house is slowly getting cleaned but, I had a small setback while organizing my dining room when I brilliantly decided it would be a better use of my time to start sanding and refinishing one of our cabinets. What little progress I made on myself has been long-lost because I fell of the exercise wagon awhile back and, well, I’m not a good cook.
So not ready for spring.
I wrote a long time ago about finding my cool and, I’m saddened to report that almost two years later, I still haven’t found it. Truthfully, I’ve given up looking because I’m pretty confident it was never there to begin with. I’m totally okay with that – I’m learning to love my inner dork. But, this early jump into spring has focused my mind on all things unfinished and unachieved, much the way New Year’s does for other people.
I will continue to remind myself that I had a lot more fun with the kids this past week playing and visiting with family and friends than I would have staying home to clean, but, I’m also promising myself that I will begin the baby-steps for summer preparation.
Tonight I will write a list of fruits and veggies I want in my garden. Tomorrow? I exercise. Wish me luck.
Are there any lingering to-do’s on your list before summer?